I haven't done an update in months, literally. Seeing as how things have changed quite a bit I figued I'd do an update. Seeing that old journal was really starting to bother me, I mean I AM the only one who reads these things anyway.

That was the most epic fail ever. I actually get the incentive to write this damn thing at two in the morning I may point out only to have it quit when I'm about halfway through. I had to retype all of this again. Awesome.

Okay the quote is from a song that has become my rallying cry. It's called "I'm not that girl" from the musical Wicked. Very good song, even better musical.

Alright, school had ended and I have graduated, scary, yes. Imagine my feelings on the subject. One funny thing though, at graduation practice I fell backwards off of the platform we were sitting on. Amusing, yes, painful, another yes. Thankfully I didn't fuck up at graduation and my speech went rather well. I was choking on sobs the entire time but people told me they liked it so it's always a plus.

I'm currently working almost twenty four seven and that shouldn't stop me from having a social life and it doesn't. More than anything I've become a hermit of my own free will. People annoy the hell out of me and my patience is wearing more and more thin these days.

I've been seeing SMB (Screaming Mechanical Brain) on an almost regular basis...well if you count once a month a regular basis. I'm not even going to go into some of the drama surrounding the conerts and stuff but it's always really fun to go to one. Lauren is coming down on August 28th, staying the weekend and we get to see them on the 29th.

Also taking place on the 29th is my tattoo. I know none of you will probably understand but I'll explain it anyway. It's a treble clef and at the bottom it's a peace sign. Sort of a symbol of my passion for music. It's the only thing that brings me 'eace' sometimes. It has meaning and it's going to be small and easily hidden so I really have no qualms about getting it besides the fact it's going to hurt and it's going to be an awkward hour or so, don't ask why.

Other than those few things not much has been going on. I'm going to HAVE to get my license here real soon because my dad is getting fed up with his 18 year old daughter being immobile. Not that I have a car but he think it'll help somehow, yeah right. Also if I get around to it I'll be signing up for classes for college starting in the spring. Whoopee joy.

Don't ask about dating. It's pretty much gone out the window. Don't get my wrong, I've tried. I've tried and failed and frankly it's getting sickening so I'm kind of trying to ignore the whole, "I'm single, I'm miserable" feeling. As I stated before. People are annoying.

If you hadn't noticed all the dry humor and sarcasm I'll point it out for you. But hey, give me a break it's two in the morning. I'm alone, I can't sleep, and my Ipod is playing nothing by sad sad songs. I have a right to a little sarcasm at this point in time.

Well there's the update. I do not feel so bad now. Although I probably won't update this thing again until November...I'm just THAT lazy...

***EDIT I've got four different social network sites open AND dA and NO ONE is on to chat....That's how amazing I am..